I haven’t actually been taking a break.  More like I’ve been flaring non-stop for months.  Seems that meds + full-time employment + a 10 hour commute/week don’t = comfort or productivity or anything positive other than a paycheck when one has Fibromyalgia.

Today brought:

  • Achey hips, legs, shoulders, arms and lower back
  • Mild headache
  • Chills
  • Pain in hands and feet
  • Inability to focus visually
  • An all-day nap
  • Tingling and numbness in hands, fingers and toes
  • Lack of appetite
  • Irritability
  • Pain when walking after getting up from sitting or laying

This is just from today.  Mostly these experiences are an everyday occurrence, but not as pronounced as they were today.

I am positively exhausted.  FMS is so frustrating…  My pain isn’t as manageable as I had hoped it would be.  My symptoms come and go, but mostly they stay for weeks at a time.  I lose days.  I can’t function at home.  I fight every day to function at work.  My commute is stressful, and having to get up before the sun does causes me anxiety.

It is so hard to keep a work schedule that I can’t keep a home schedule.  My poor husband is frustrated to see me having to go through this and he feels helpless because there’s nothing that he can do to make me feel better.  This adds more stress and anxiety to my days.

I don’t know what to do to better my quality of life.  I wish that I had the energy to work it out…